I will wait for you

Aloha God's people?

I'm hoping y'all have been keeping in it fresh like cucumbers and holy like we agreed on. I have also been trying to though it has not been an easy task provided the circumstances that I study at an university where guys call it Sodom and Gomorrah of  which I  really do not understand because looking at the world we live in?? It's all Sodom and Gomorrah. But YES WE CAN.

 I bet you agree with me. With all the drama that has been going on in Kenya "TOP STORIES" and i'm not naming names less i'm told i'm judging besides I know y'all know what I'm talking about. Speaking of judging, I'm going through a lot... struggling in this area but  i'm working on it, in Jesus name. One question though, What is the difference between judging and rebuking? Well, thats a storo for another day. Think about it.

This week has been an amazing one. I have tasted and seen what the Lord has done...beautiful creations I tell you. Goodness...got distracted for some moment there...buga buga buga!!(FOCUS)

 Anyways, back to the point of today's post, I have been listening to a lot of spoken word of late and the one I will share today made me emotional. Yes, you heard me, emotional. I almost....ALMOST shed a few tears here and there...not tears of sadness but of happiness.

I'm a G, only cry when it is really necessary, like when you break a nail or hit your toe against a sharp edge or that one for the elbow, waaaaaa kwanza that one for the elbow? Auwi...the thought of it gives me goosebumps.

Today, I was talking to one of my besties Brayan, 

...nicest guy I have ever come across, ladies..if u want his number,(ehem as u can see, the Lord has blessed him) mnaweza niona kando...with some money like this...lol jk, he's been stamped, sealed and taken. aaaargh, back to my story, he really keeps me in check with reality and  I came to realize that I have solo-phobia(assuming you know what it means)... OK i knew I kinda did but i was in denial and after doing some soul searching and deep thinking, the florescent bulb finally lit...and came to a conclusion that we at times look for love in all the wrong places!! #victim number one mimi. 

 As human beings we always look for things that make us happy, I do, even though at times they disappoint  but you make yourself believe that its all going to be OK and things will be back to normal of which in the end it will....maybe, but in reality its not-at the moment or it won't because maybe, just maybe, the damage is done and its too late and its permanent. I donno if you get me but I pray God will give you the wisdom to understand what i'm trying to pass across....AMEN?

The poem below made me think about my life, and how I would want it to be, my way or God's way. I realized that I have always wanted things to go my way but in the end, it is God's way that matters! It's a poem by a beautiful woman, Janette..ikz aka genetics, who has made a choice to follow Christ.

I was touched and have purposed in my heart to be like her and David, people after God's own heart. be blessed...

So it seemed, that it was cool...cool, for everyone to be in a relationship but me..

So I took matters into my own hands… and ended up with him

Him who displayed the characteristics of a CHEATER, a LIAR, an ABUSER, & a THEIF

So.. why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?

I called 911, but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,

Cause it was ME who let him in…

Claiming we were “just friends”..

It was already decided for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t!

I was gonna make him ‘The One’..

You know… I was tired of being alone,

And I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride,

Cause I was always the bridesmaid & never the bride..

A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!

Who was tired of the wait!

So I was gonna make him ‘The One’.

He had a… form of Godliness… but not much..

But hey, hey I can change him! So (honey) I’ll TAKE him, I mean he’s close… enough

Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter, not knowing the value of its use to me

Arties so clogged with MY will, it blocked HIS Will from flowing through me

So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,

That flatlined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back

Through my ignorance He sawed,

Through my sternum He sawed & cracked open my chest

TO transplant Psalm 51:10

A new heart & a renewed right spirit within!

So now I fully understand,

Better yet I thoroughly comprehend,

How much I NEED to wait… for You.

See, the bad thing is that I knew he wasn’t you from the beginning..

Cause in the beginning was the Word

And he didn’t even sound or shine like Your Son

Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,

And all he could whisper was sweet, empty nothings –

Which meant NOTHING.

He couldn’t even pray when I NEEDED him to

Asking him to fast would be absurd!

So forget about being cleansed & washed with water through the Word…

But I know You.. ♥

You were already praying for me

Even never having met me

Let me assure you, I will wait for you.

I will no longer date, socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you

To appease my boredom or to quench my thirstiness I have for attention

And short-lived compliments from ‘sorta kindas’.

You know…. He ‘sort kinda’ right, but ‘sorta kinda’ wrong?

His first name LUKE,

His last name WARM.

I, I won’t settle for false companionship

I won’t lay in the embrace of his arms,

Attempting to find some closeness,

But never feeling so far apart cause, I just wanna be held

Cause ♫”all I gotta do is Say” No!

NO more ‘almost sessions’ of ‘almost coming close’

Passing winks & buying drinks,

I’ma, I’ma, I’ma flirt!♫

Who flirts with the ideology of,

‘Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be saved?’

NO more.

I’ll stay in my bed… alone, and write poems, about how I will wait for you

He won’t even come close,

Our fingers won’t even interlock

We won’t even exchange breath

Cause I have thoughts that I’ve ‘saved as’ in a file that God has only equipped you to open.

I will no longer get weighted down,

From so-called friends & family talks,

About the concern for my biological clock

When I serve the Author of Time.

Who is NOT subject to time,

But I’M subject to Him,

He has the ability to STOP, FAST FORWARD, PAUSE, or REWIND at any given time…

So if we could role play,

You would be Abraham & I would be Sara

Or you can be Isaac & I can be Rebecca – a servant’s answered prayer

I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh,

Made up of your rib Adam!

And once we meet, like electrons

I will be bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom.

We even speak the same math: 1 + 1 + 1 = 3, which really equals 1 if you add Him.

We were all created in His image,

But you have the ability to reflect, project & even detect the Son.

If I were to explain what you looked like,

You would have to look like a star,

A son of the Son..

I would gain energy simply from the light on me.

I would need you , in order to complete my photosynthesis

I await your revelation, but once again from the genesis, I will wait for you ♥

And I will know you… because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom,

Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses,

Your faith will remind me of Abraham,

Your confidence in God’s Word will remind me of Daniel,

Your inspiration will remind me of Paul,

Your heart for God will remind me of David,

Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah,

Your integrity will remind me of Joseph,

And your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,

But Your ability to love selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.

But I won’t need to identify you by any special Matthews or any special Marks,

Cause His word will be tatted all over your heart.

And you will know me, and you will find me,

Where… the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth.

Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary,

Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hanna.

I will be the one, drenched in Proverbs 31… waiting for you.

But to my Father, my Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth

Only if you should see fit…

I desire Your will above mine,

So even if you call me to a life of singleness,

My heart is content with YOU – the One who was sent.

YOU are the greatest love story ever told,

The greatest story ever known

You are forever my judge & I’m forever Your witness

And I pray that I’m always found on a mission about my Father’s business

Oh, I will always be Yours!

And I will always wait for You Lord, more than the watchmen wait for the morning…

More than the watchmen wait for the morning… I WILL WAIT ♥

You see why I was telling you I almost cried... This is what I want to happen in my life, wouldn't you? 

I'm sure dudes are wondering how does it applies to them? Wouldn't you want to a godly girlfriend who will turn out to be a godly wife as proverbs 31 says? Isn't she worth waiting for?

For chics, wouldn't you want a godly guy who has been described above? 

Isn't he worth waiting for?

The Lord knows the desires of our hearts but its His will that matters. 

On a light note:

There were 11 people - ten men and one woman - hanging onto a rope that came down from a helicopter.

They all decided that one person should get off, because if they didn't, the rope would break and everyone would die.

No one could decide who should go, so finally, the woman gave a really touching speech saying how she would give up her life to save the others, because women were used to giving up things for their husbands and children, giving in to men, and not receiving anything in return.

When she finished speaking, all the men started clapping.

As always, I love y'all but God's love is the Greatest...xoxo

You can leave your comments below and let me know what you think.